I do not have the answer...
But they did me a favor, a subtle eureka moment. Their posts, their stories, reminded me of why I blog, and the feeling I got from writing and then reading personal stories. That is why I am blogging. Because I love to think out loud. I need to tell my stories, I love to read them again and find out how different I felt or judge or thought about how things were back then, or realize nothing changes, I still feel the same I just understand it better or still lost. It is precious to me. I don't always understand me, the great I inside this growing old body of mine, but by reading about my past, I understand my right now, my today and what I stand for. The right and the wrong, everything changes, for better or worse, that's how life goes, and that is how I go too.
So i decided to let this blog to be as personal as I can allow myself to be. So someday in a not so near future, when I read this blog old posts, I don't feel like I have cheated on me because I cannot recognize my own voice. I save that for other blogs, haha... This old blog, will stay the same. It's about me: who I was before, who I am now, and who I will or might be but not, what I stood for and what I stand for. I will try to be as honest as the cunning shio monkey personality and the gemini duality can tolerate me to do. So, dear blog and dear readers, if there is one, you are stuck with me. I hope you enjoy the ride, I'm sure I will!
eh sama lhoo.. belakangan gua juga suka mengunjungi blog2 yang dulu suka gua baca2in personal posts-nya and ada rasa 'kehilangan' pas 'kisah' mereka seakan 'berhenti' di postingan terakhir yang tertanggal sekian tahun silam.. lucu ya padahal ga kenal juga secara personal tapi ngebaca their daily lifes jadi berasa udah 'kenal' aja githu XD
ReplyDeleteBener, ada yang dia berhentinya di suatu kejadian yang kayaknya penting buat hidup dia, trus dia ngilang. Hiks... Bener-bener seperti baca novel yang bab-bab selanjutnya hilang begitu saja. En gw jadi mengerti kegeraman dan rasa penasaran Augustus dan Hazel, terutama Hazel yang penasaran banget sama akhir cerita The Imperial Affliction-nya Peter Van Houten. But more often in life we get just that, an unfinished business or stories. We should be getting used to that by now, but somehow with blogs, it is more difficult because those are life-written stories, nggak bisa ngungkapinnya gimana, pokoknya terasa beda deh... Haha... Maybe, gue aja yang suka nostalgic ya, jadi berasa agak-agak mellow. Salahin umur, makin tua kan orang makin suka mengenang masa lampau, wkwkwk...
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ReplyDeleteGue juga kangen sama temen2 yg punya blog personal (bukan monetized blog) dan cerita2 kehidupan mereka. Tp ya sama kali kasusnya kyk gue, rempong sama kerjaan dan urusan rumah trus hiatus trus gak pernah update lagi. Padahal blog2 mereka itu justru yg seru dibaca krn ada kejadian2 yg bikin gue membatin...weh, sama yaaaa....
Gue bahkan ga yakin mereka masih ingat mereka punya blog, wkwkwk, terakhir apdet 6 tahun yang lalu. Rata-rata pada berenti tahun 2010. Link mereka umumnya gue dapat dari komentar mereka. Sebab udah beberapa kali ganti template blog ini dan ga menyelamatkan links yang pernah sering interaksi. Untung masih tersisa komen-komen itu.
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